4.00am

What a night i having here, been arguing with her, sapu my friend at snooker table for 80 point+, not to mention sure its about my mood... already been a long time since i really done it seriously... well back to the part where i said i argue with her, i bet everyone wan to know also.

Well thing happen when she mention about "can i put in relationship with someone" and that someone is not me. Well what would u feel if your bf or gf ask u like that, surely u will say know and i guess your other part will know the answer without asking right? I guess she know i wont be happy with it, but i just cant accept it cause when i ask her, she just directly reject my offer. Why other guy can? I bet she answer me cause she is my "brother", been friend for so long, i just helping him to chase away his fans. But why would u? Why must u?

Been sitting with my buddies at cafe until 4am, time to go back but i bet i cant sleep wish to stay at outside abit longer. but alone? i scare lonely, but what can i do if i went out? Go take picture? sunrise? dunno what i should do also.

4.30am right now, been in the bath room for 20 min, washing myself for 20min... but it not helping, no matter how long i been washing myself, my mind still full of u, the msg u told me still fresh, u said u are not a good gf... yeah i pretty agree, but i know u just being honest to me. Sometimes i did ask, am i really that honest to u? i bet i am not.

5am right now...not even yawning... what should i do? wait until 6am and go jogging? Crazy, been hell long since i lag jog. the last msg u send to me,"den ok la..u like..if u reli do it..den no nid find me again..also not my busines.bye..." are u serious with it? i wanted to ask u this but i can't. not cause u sleep already but cause i scare ur answer is a yes.

5.38am been looking at the wallet u gave me as my birthday present, been thinking what if u really serious about it? should i return it? or should i keep it in drawer? the ring u give me, should i take it down? the cloth u give me, should i just keep it someone where i wont take it out. i wanna tell u right now at this very moment what i thinking is all about u. Honestly I love u, that's why i dun like u post that out..............

Missing u

5.26am 08/06/2011,
Woke up in the middle of the night cause of a dream... Trying to sleep again but can't, maybe slept too much. Well got nothing to do then, maybe write a blog while i was damn freaking boring right now...
Nothing much to say also...

Been looking on facebook, and i ended up at you page... review all of your picture and i found out, why does i always say u are not pretty while in my heart u are. Am i weird? I can't tell u this cause i know with your attitude, u sure been overwhelmed by what i said and will keep praising yourself cause of that... Weirdo u were.

U know what...there are a lot of thing that u said really hurt me sometimes... and remember the hennessy artistry night i went to? i saw that guy there, ended up my mood turn upside down. I dun like to saw him, wanna give him a punch on his freaking face. Never felt such hatred toward someone for all my life until now... he is the 1st one. I always think how good it will be if i have met u before he does... but its something i can't change.

We always argue and u always wanted to break up, but do u remember all those happy moment we spend is much more than the sadness we had? I know u do. Tho u say u are not sure about your feeling to me but i can feel what u really felt on me.

I just wanted u to know... that my feeling toward u is real. And i will do my best for u. I love u and i really miss u right now at this very moment... hope u receive my msg