19-11-2010

Here an update for what i have done today.... weee... finally today came. wake up at 12 and started to pratice my singing until 2pm then went out for lunch with ray, uhm someone who gonna go for the audition with me... and after the lunch we went straight to station1 at 3pm sharp ok... its sharp 3pm. then after get the form we went to get our picture print out cause its require our picture. well at 1st i thought it will be less people but when we reach back... wow its like got 20 people onli>.< really lesser than what i imagine. that not the case cause the form can be submit bfore 8pm. I joing up with my friend kimiro group that include peter and johnson. Well there are somemore there but its seem like 2 of them went to somewhere else. And 4pm finally reach and the staff rushed me to submit out form so that they can start it, but its like no one wan to submit it... well then got 4 person submit and i waited another 20min then i went to submit and apparently.... i was the 5th one to sing.... Damn it... i was damn nervous when i saw my number is 5.... shit... so the audition start, the 1st contestant went on stage but then got technical problem so its been delay awhile but its back on real fast like 5 min... i guess. And continue with the 1st contestant... well this is the biggest contestant that went on the stage claiming he can sing like a singer(p.s. i forget which singer he mention about) then when he sing... wow... damn... its was worser than me... ok the 2nd one were ok. and the 3rd and 4th were both friend and they actually can sing but just lack of a bit skill on controlling key.( who i was to comment about other singing skill while i got no)
AND ITS FINALLY MY TURN, to be honest i was like nothing bfore on the stage but when i was on the stage and everyone were looking at me.... Gosh i am damn nervous lo.... its like i was start shaking there... after introducing my self i start my 1st song ronan keating when u say nothing at all but its end up the judge say i like din sing it out loud... so here goes my 2nd song fei ni mou su... but end up the same... 3rd song i forget what i sing and finally its was like finally i can get off the stage BUT the judge say... give me 1 more try like singing another song... well i was like URGH.... PLS LET ME GO... at 1st i totally like got no clue to sing what song but then the judge tell me i like JJ lin alot so why not try his song... and i sing chi pang... well its end up i was shaking badly and i cant concentrate on my key.... and it like flat/.... so its finally end of my turn. and my friend were up and most of them did a great job but some of them din get to the 2nd audition. Johnson and sky were great... they sing like totally professional... and we enjoy the day over there.... we stay up until 9pm and all went back bfore the audition end... cause we were damn tired... so its end of my audition day and i really had a great lecturing from the judge i will try to improve my singing skill.. and try it again next year

Here the 2nd part... after a rest at home, uhm its like 1 hours. then i heading out to club again, to met my sister veronne and shiki, much more cant miss out zoe... and my audition friend to celebrate for out braveness to go on to the stage... and faced the media... tho i dun really have fun in the club but i met a new friend name sky ALSO.... another sky.... haha... well this guy got talent on magic, dance... and maybe how to tackle a girl... its was fun to met him cause he show me plenty of magic trick... and cant miss out we dance on the stage and its like his break dance were pro too... better than mine... hahaha

its time to say bye to my blog again and all those that following me...
pls update on what i did in future, thx

14/11/2010

What the fuck with tonight... getting so damn moody until thing out of my mind.... alot of thing i wan but i cant get. Haiz... was clubbing with friend but end up almost fighting someone. Ok find this is the last time i gonna club... i just can be myself somemore... burden on me just getting heavier. family, career, relationship and friend.
why the hell all this stuff playing with me?? i just wanna live my life normally, calmly and steady.

what i wan is not what i wanna got. I just wanna punch something. sand bag maybe...


woohooo and i end up punching it till my hand bleed... i am drunk and tired... its time to sleep... wtf with this world

10/11/2010

Phew the day passed and now its 11/11/2010. What a bad day for me. Been arguing with my father on a serious matter where it involve my sibling also. What da hell if what we said is for his own good and he doesn't listen to... I was like been arguing with him for an hour and what i get asking me to leave... Wait i did leave my house 4 years ago and i can do it again. If not because of my youngest sister, i won't be coming back to this house and seeing ur fucking face. Was finding someone to lend me a shoulder but end up the one that i wanna find the most are unreachable but someone really nice ended up calling me, comfort me. If not for some reason, I might be giving all i had to get her. If one day, i can just put down all those burden on my shoulder, how good will it be? I was thinking all over and i was too tired. Fall asleep until 6 plus where my mother call me to wake me up.

Apparently, i dunno what i want to do anymore. And i lost all my faith toward him. I wanna find my own life where i can be happy and free. I dun wan to be tie up by all those problem he cause anymore.

Now were 4.03am and i just drank another bottle of tiger. Wanted to sleep but feel hungry... Why at time like this =.=
And i am missing someone so badly, as i look to her profile and her blog. I just knew that i lost connection with her. It's like i dunno a lot of thing that happening to her. Maybe she find her life and being happy with. And one thing that makes me very happy is in her blog she mention about someone asking her to smoke but ended up she didn't smoke. What a news. Tho it might not be me that change her but i am happy for her.

It's time to sleep as i am damn tired for what happen yesterday. Good night