Boring day

The whole day i only sleeping, covered by my warn blanket and accompany by my very dear bolster... Lonely... sad... miss someone. When i awake, the 1st time i wish is there a sms from her in my phone... Ya there a lot message but non of them is from her. Kinda disappointed, but i still wait her to send me one. I try to sms her so she reply but she don't. Love someone are driving me mad, crazy... Haiz... Then around 6p.m. my friend drag me out to snooker center. Until 8 i reach home and again no 1 at home... lonely... alone... thinking of what she doing. So i called her, when i thought she wont answer, she pick up the phone. The 1st word cross my mind is i'm sorry for neglect her yesterday. I ask her where is she now, and she told me she at pasar malam(night market) with her boyfriend... sure my heart ache but what to do, that guy beside her is her official boyfriend and what am i at here? Mayb i really think too much and neglect how she think to me. Sadly i hang up and msg her said "have a nice day". Tho that is not what i wanna say but that the only thing i can say.

Maybe its right that loving someone doesn't mean to be together with that someone but is it that easy to give up on that someone? Is it i can let it go so easy... I dunno myself but for who i was now, i confused within the sea of confusion. Letting go is not my choice, Can i just stay at the spot i was now and care for her till the day where we really can officially together came?